back to the starting line we go

geez. i am getting real real tired of failure.

its just so hard, motivation wise. my moods change so easily. for example, tonight i might be like, alright! lets get this show on the road! i am going to do so awesome tomorrow, what i waiting for!? i gotta go to bed now! sleeping is very important....

then later, im still awake in bed. okay. oh my stomach just growled. so i eat a snack. oh well now my stomach has to settle so i might as well watch a little tv. oh look a movie is on... i wonder whats going on online. oh lets watch some drama. that was great! now lets watch that new episode of that new anime...

wow that was great. OMG look at the time. it's 5:00 in the morning already

& that is how i stray so easily

i think i am going to take a break from writing on this. i really thought that writing everything out would help, but it just eventually became a chore. just like going to all of the fitness sites & forums, its better if i just do it on my own. & write it out on a notebook & my calendar.